...is that I'm too attached to my dearest Kari. I'm not sure I could survive without her. And that's not good. I've been reading a good deal of Buddhist philosophy in the last two years and I know that grasping after things, including people, will eventually cause suffering. Because things are impermanent. Everything changes, everything dies. Our relationship is the best and most stable thing in my life--in my entire life--but it will end one of these days. Most likely through her or my death. And somehow I need to find a way to suppress my fear of losing her.